Monday, May 24, 2010

which path do i take?

His words first:
"in his heart a man plans his course,
but the LORD determines his steps." prov 16:9 niv

i am a fan of e.e. cummings

i carry your heart with me(i carry it in
my heart)i am never without it(anywhere
i go you go,my dear;and whatever is done
by only me is your doing,my darling)
i fear
not fate(for you are my fate,my sweet)i want
no world(for beautiful you are my world,my true)
and it's you are whatever a moon has always meant
and whatever a sun will always sing is you

here is the deepest secret nobody knows
(here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud
and the sky of the sky of a tree called life;which grows
higher than soul can hope or mind can hide)
and this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart

i carry your heart(i carry it in my heart)

don't know much about the guy, but he talks about the Lord and never uses caps. :)

lately my life has been sooo stinkin' good! everything seems to be working out ...wait, did i just say that? yep, sure did. everything is fantabulous and i couldn't as for more. heck, i don't want more! i deserve death!!! not an awesome summer of school, work and good times w/ friends. the next 3.5 years seem to be set in stone for me. school, school, church, and more school. fun.

i think the coolest thing about going to school to be a chiropractor is that i have total peace about it. the good Lord has given me the tools and desire to work in this field. thanks ;)

so for the days, months, years to come, i will be throughly stressed and overwhelmed. looking forward to that! ...not so much. one thing that's been a work in progress is giving the reigns of life over to God. far too often i do what i think is best for me-doesn't work...ever. prov 16:9 is truth. we can plan and plan and plan, but if it's not in the Lord's will, we can't guarantee it'll work out. don't forget He is an all-powerful God who has the power to change anything He so chooses.

long story short: there are several life-altering choices to make. one being school. two being the church i attend (the gathering), and three being my lull-full search for a mate.

i know this isn't too exciting, but i wanna dip my toe in the water and get one outta the way.

in my life, Jesus is teaching me to have His eyes, His arms, and His love for all His people. i have genuinely felt compassion over another human being...what a great/heart-breking feeling.

i am stupid tired right now and can't keep my eyes open anymore. ...the next one will be tons better. promie